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Beloved

All my secular love songs are off my iPod. (Except Josh Groban. he doesn't count.)
Jesus DIED for me.
I refuse to be His bride that keeps "chasing lovers that won't satisfy."
And for me, right now, that means not listening to secular love songs, even Taylor Swift, and Disney Princesses.
Hard.
But worth it.

What is keeping you from your Lover? What are you chasing that won't satisfy?
Get rid of it.

-Lindsey

Late-night poetry :)

I kind of just had a, chill out hour. I played some solitare, and wrote. I wrote two poems, among other things. I rather like them. They are both the cry of my heart. I will, however, only share one, as the other is entirely...not written for human eyes :)

What Is Love?

What is love?
Is it hugs and kisses,
Holding hands and making wishes?
Could it be butterflies and flowers, calling on the hour?
Dancing in spring showers? What is love's mystic power?!
Is love in an enamored glance?
Or maybe in a body-induced trance?

Though I have yet to give my heart,
I have been hit by love's hot dart...
For One, you see, has died for me,
And when into His eyes I gaze,
The "love" of the world becomes a haze.
Thus, to my Lover my life I give,
And someday...
Someday...
With my prince I'll live.

No theivery! It's mine and I worked hard on it!!!

Keep fighting. Keep waiting. God won't let you down. What He withholds we are not lacking.

I encourage you to take a "you" night; it does wonders for your perspective! :)

Now if you''ll excuse me, it's nearly 1AM. yeah...bad. And I have to get up around seven! Oh goodness. But the fresh look is better :)

Oh, and listen to While I'm Waiting by John Waller.

-Lindsey

Newfound empathy for dogs

Have you ever been out walking your dog and jerked on the leash? Sure, if your dog is anything like mine, they deserved the correction.

But I started thinking tonight, how much I feel like a dog on a leash, being jerked around by my emotions.

I'm pretty sure that's not a good thing. I'm really sick of it actually. And it's annoying when I think I've got a grip on myself how they just drag me back down again. There has to be a way to defeat these evil things. I officially hate being a teenage girl. lol.

Like, tonight. I'm super giddy right now. I had an orange soda, and I got communcation with my friend in Ohio today, and I was texting with one of my favorite people all evening, and it was just really fun. We were fake flirting (so funny, lol) and stuff, and it was just so much fun.

Then I thought to how earlier I was so grumpy over a really weird really annoying piano lesson.

Am I that shallow that my moods can just jerk me around like that? I really hate being this unstable all the time. Like..................yeah. I want to be an even kilter kind of girl. None of this roller coaster junk.

Sure some stuff will alter your happiness, but should it alter your stand? I guess that's more what I'm driving out. I posted a NO BOYS ALLOWED sign on my heart last week, and today, i caught myself wanting to take that sign down and let this one in.

Por que? Because I like how he writes? Because I want to be really close to him? Last time I checked that was possible without dating. So why do I let myself do this? No sir. not this time. That sign is staying up.

But.....how are you supposed to know when it's okay to take it down? What if I'm ignoring a feeling that's supposed to be there? what.......am I even saying?! See what I mean?! It's SO FRUSTRATING!

::::::sigh::::::::::

My day was still awesome. I've just got more stuff I have to work through. More stuff to talk to God about. I'm so glad He doesn't give up on me, even when I want to. <3

-Linz

Haha

Funny how God works, isn't it?





"Loving things like you has wrecked my life, made me cry
Loving things like you has made me lose my mind
And I can't figure out why I've been hanging on
To all these things I've tried to leave behind me for so long

And I think it's time to find a better way to live my life
Than loving all those things that keep me wrapped so tight

Cuz everyone wants everyone else's eveything
Sometimes the more we have the less we really gain
I'm tired of loving all that money has to buy
Get out of my heart, out of my mind, leaving you behind

Loving things like you has left me bruised, black and blue
Loving things like you has made me so confused
And I can't figure out what I've been waiting on
God I can't be living for things I know are wrong

Now I think it's time to write a better chapter in my life
Leaving all those things that keep me wrapped so tight

Cuz everyone wants everyone else's eveything
Sometimes the more we have the less we really gain
I'm tired of loving all that money has to buy
Get out of my heart, out of my mind, leaving you behind

Why are we obsessed with possessions here on earth?
Go and take a look at the flowers and the birds
God is always taking care of nature's every need
And how much more important in The Father's eyes are we?
I said, how much more important in The Father's eyes are we?
He sees everything.....

Everyone wants everyone else's eveything
Sometimes the more we have the less we really gain
I'm tired of loving all that money has to buy
Get out of my heart, out of my mind, leaving you behind."
-Things Like You-Sanctus Real

I've noticed God most talks to me through music. lol.
True love from above.
-Lindsey
(haha, that was a lame rhyme. sorry...)

Grrr....hiss....pop! bang!

Don't worry, your car isn't exploding.

I'm just......................LOSING MY SANITY!

well, if you know me, you're thinking, hasn't that been gone for a long time.
hahaha, fuuunnny guys.....
no, seriously.
I am having the worst, worst time lately.
And i don't even know why.
Like. I'll be awesome forlike, half the day. Just, you and me God. No worries.
Then........................something happens. something always happens. some stupid valentine's day commercial. I start thinking about this guy. Or about how I miss that guy. Or about how much I don't want that one to get hurt.

Why do I have to care so much. I've often asked myself that while driving, why do I have to have such a conscience? I'd really love to go more than 40-45mph, but. that's the law. so. i can't.

Wow, this analogy is going to be better than I thought. So. I'm driving through life, and there are these "laws" for my life (not being legalistic, just.......convictions.). So as I'm driving, I have the choice to ignore these convictions that are here to keep me safe, or to abide by them, no matter how much I'd rather speed off at a much faster pace.

So. First off. Why am I driving? God needs to be driving my life. So. To remedy this situation:
Let God drive.
End of story.

Yeah this is really choppy. sorry about that, lol. It's hard to think straight when............your heart and mind and will are racing in different directions.
SIT.
STAY.
Boy I wish they listened as well as my dog. hahaha.
anyway.
sorry for the extreme random-idity...
much love girls.
-Lindsey

This will probably make sense to one person in the universe

and that's okay. I just need to write. I have no idea which blog this should go on.

saying my heart is confused is an understatement.
I can list four love songs right now that each make me think of different boys.
I can list a million songs that try to remind me to only focus on God.
I can't give a reason the four have my attention.

one of my problems-Valentine's day. I don't care how you slice it, this time of year is the pits for me. I'm so tired of shallow, fake girls getting guys, and....i'm just over in the corner.
Alone.
Again.

I'm tired of people not validating my point of view. I'm tired of watching people make mistakes. I'm tired of trying to stop them. I'm tired of crying for them.

I'm tired of feeling inadequate. I'm tired of feeling like unless I have a boyfriend I don't know love.

I'm tired of struggling with this. I'm tired of pining to be held. Longing for someone who thinks I'm special. I'm tired of wishing someone would call me and just want to talk to me, just because he thinks i'm worth it.

I'm tired of having such a romantic mind that I think about these things. I'm tired of feeling incomplete. I'm tired of it all. And I'm so tired of crying.

Most of all I'm tired of looking God in the face and deciding His love isn't good enough. I'm tired of not being patient with Him. I'm tired of it all.

In short, blog, my heart is in a quandry. I just want to go curl up in a ball and cry.

Are you tired of being tired of it all? Let me know; I want to pray for you.
-Lindsey